SIGH

There are up days and there are down days. Today happens to start as a down day.

I'm supposed to work this afternoon and for some reason, I'm dreading it. A few days ago, I was really looking forward to it, actually. But today, I could hardly pull myself out of bed.

Currently I'm reading "The Screwtape Letters" by C.S. Lewis and "Heaven" by Randy Alcorn. Both books have been helping me see the spiritual dimension of life a little more clearly. So I know that this blah feeling most likely has a spiritual cause. Incidentally, I'm going through "Praying the Names of God" by Ann Spangler for my quiet times and the name of God this week is "The LORD is my Banner" - God is my victory.

I have a choice today: live as if I'm defeated, or live in the victory of Christ. One would be choosing death. The other would be choosing life.

I think I'll choose life today. What about you?

HAPPY B-DAY TO ME!

Nope, it's not my birthday. Yesterday marked my first "Back-to-work" day. I'm splitting my eight hour workweek into two afternoons - Wednesdays and Fridays - at least that's the arrangement for the time being.

The project I get to work on is really neat. I'm doing a painting (hopefully more than one) as part of a display booth with the aim of generating conversations on campuses revolving around the question "Does God Exist?" A bonus is I get to work at home. And did I mention, I get to paint?

My first day working was pretty nondescript. I feel like I should have gotten some fanfare or recognition for it. But I know God knows how big a step it felt like for me. And I believe He was applauding me from Heaven.

I feel like I'm re-entering work very cautiously. Partly because I'm testing the waters on how much I can handle. Partly because I don't have a clear vision of where to run with my life. So I'm taking baby steps. And I'm learning to be ok with that.

Anyway, in celebration of my return to work, Tim and I went to a local (and surprisingly quiet) pub to watch Mats Sundin play his first hockey game with the Vancouver Canucks. It was his first day back, too. And they won. =)